I also have this idea in my head that good and bad deeds influence your energy body, and you get angel wings or a beastly look (hooves, hairy legs, claws and fangs). And I swear I saw wings on ER medics. And I think that when a man with sins approaches such an angelic person, his demonic appearance manifests and can be seen… I just don’t understand why there are no angels in Asian cultures. There, saints (bodhisattvas) have multiple hands to help all in need, not wings. Maybe these hands are similar to wings..
Yesterday I realized that I think about solipsism very often. I think that I cling to the idea that life is one and that this historical passage is universal for all incarnations. I feel there’s nothing to be found in science except for space travel and the evolution of cyborgs. So that will be it for the next 40 years, if I survive… So yesterday I was listening to a lesson about the pre-historical period of humanity and found out that humans have millions of years of history, but Homo sapiens only about 40,000 years of history… I really can’t understand such huge numbers. I think that a person, even during a 30-year lifespan (as was before), could have invented seed growing and animal domestication within a single lifetime. Yet scientists say there were millions of years of evolution. In moments like this, I feel this information is like a bug on the prism of my solipsism, very close, like in The Matrix. And in this bug, all the people around me somehow believe it and don’t doubt it.
The analogy with reincarnations as dominoes is interesting – when they are lined up in a row and the first domino falls on the second, and so on – that is samsara. And no questions arise when it is a closed circle, i.e., if the end is the beginning.
But if the circle is broken by Nirvana (Moksha), then a question immediately arises – one that the Buddha refused to answer: if someone who has completely paid off their karma has no more bad karma and has attained Nirvana (timelessness), then what initiates a new cycle of samsara? Where does the karma for a new life come from?
