| To be average. To live without meaning and still wake up on time. To wear a comedy mask while rehearsing a tragedy no one bought tickets for. In the morning you catch a thought – blurred, anxious, unfinished. A thought about emptiness. A thought that maybe nothing was ever supposed to mean anything. In this ordinary reality, this awkward, almost ridiculous world, you give up the idea of being unique. You repeat Newton’s laws out loud, forces applied to a body, as if physics could explain why the body keeps moving when the will does not. You imagine shifting a proton, changing coordinates, altering something fundamental – just enough to escape your own limits. The limits of flesh. The limits of a brain that feels separate, like it’s lying somewhere in a glass jar, connected to electrodes, observing you from a distance. And still this absurd sorrow floating in a cloudy solution does not become smaller. As if it always belonged here. As if it was never a mistake – just another fragment of the story. *** We’ll meet there, and see how fear Has seeped through cracks in the concrete floor. We’ll meet there, and watch it clear – Those thoughts that I will die once more. | Быть посредственностью Жить в бессмысленности Ходить в маске комедии Играть героя трагедии С утра поймать себя на мысли На мысли смазанной и тревожной На мысли об отсутствии смысла На мысли, что кажется невозможной В этой банальной реальности Такого смешного, нелепого мира Отказавшись от уникальности Долго бродить по квартире Повторяя законы Ньютона О силах приложенных к телу Изменить координату протона Подойти к своему пределу К пределу возможностей тела И мозга, что кажется отделенным Что лежит, похоже, в банке Подключенный к электродам Но, от этого абсурдное горе Плавающее в мутном растворе Не кажется сильно меньше Но, кажется частью истории *** Мы встретимся там, и увидим, как страх Просочился сквозь щели в бетонном полу Мы встретимся там и увидим, как в прах Рассыпаются мысли о том, что умру Nastya Kalinina https://t.me/metaphysic_intoxication |
Posts tagged ‘phylosophy’
I found some gaps in Buddhism.
The Buddha refused to answer two questions:
- Where the very first cause of karma comes from.
- Whether nirvana is eternal.
He said the first question is not useful for practice,
and the second one is beyond human understanding of beginning and end – like a singularity outside time.
Because of this, it doesn’t really work to say that nirvana is the beginning of samsara.
It’s unclear how a perfectly enlightened being, who has reached nirvana, could suddenly produce initial karma that starts samsara (the wheel of rebirth).
Also, the word “eternal” feels strange.
“Forever” doesn’t really exist – never forever, keep the beat.
Choose childfree.
Consider a world where birth is mourned and death celebrated, cos life is suffering itself.
P.S. You may ask who will take care of me when I’m old. Live and plan wisely and your money will take care of you much better and guaranteed than any child. I also want to add that even if I risk dying alone, my beautiful childfree life is worth it.
Everything depends on what kind of illusion you have created for yourself — one that makes life easier or, on the contrary, complicates it.
God appears where logic stops working.
Historically, God fulfills important functions:
- keeps a person from falling apart
- provides a solution for surviving suffering
- makes it possible to bear loneliness
- creates a stable point when the world is chaotic
