I want to apologize for bullshit i was writing here recently... poems. I was in psychosis... I have official diagnosis Paranoid Schizophrenia and it happens to me time to time.. I went out from mental clinic 1 week ago and feel much better. So, I apologize again.. I'm afraid to look at posts i made in mania\psychosis... so i simply closed them. Well, actually I'm all right now, returned to studies (Clinical Psychology, Religion Studies and Script-writing). All is fine doctors fixed me, i'm really grateful. I also want to add that poems composing mode is equal to psychosis to me... I can write poems only in mania... when thoughts are racing and paranoya. This state is also suicidal.. so no wonder many poets moved to the next level ^..^
